arggghhh

My boyfriend is still overseas. Lots of things have been happening since he has left. Our relationship is more exciting than rollercoaster ride. He got involved in an accident which scared the shit out of me. His sister bf sent me an sms saying that he was dead. I was crying my heart out at the office and felt so lost. I tried calling him and he didnt answer at all. I regreted quarelling with him the night before. About half an hour later, I recieved an overseas call and it was my boyfriend! I was so shocked, and yes as you have guessed by now his sister's bf tricked me. Argggghhhh, I was damn pissed, but was glad that he was well and alive and only suffered a minor knee injury.

Well, I thought that after what has happened, our relationship would be a lot better. It did, but now he is breaking up with me every single day. I dont know what he is pissed about and I dont know what he is thinking about. But we manage to settle the dispute every night. However not for this time, it has been 25 hrs since he last messaged me. I am worried, worried that something might have happened to him. Well, I'm telling myself now that maybe its not meant to be.

I think that I am never ever gonna get married. Am really happy being alone. No idea how to handle a relationship anymore. I am just not good at it. I should just focus on my career, as that is what i am good at.